Hello all,

I had a really successful day.
Woke up fairly early, had a shower and then had a small breakfast. Then off to college. We met at 10 for a little christmas celebration. I was singing "Oh come all ye faithful" on the microphone, and at the second verse I told them to sing with me. It was great. I got loads and loads of compliments after how well I sung. Almost made me go red! Went to the cafe after to have a cup of tea and was joined by another blind person with his helper, and she said she feels like rubbish sitting opposite me seeing how much I have achieved. I told her to stop saying that, I got all red. Lol. It was nice though, I'm not used to being complimented so much. I liked it somehow. Then I went to the library and went on the computer with the crappy supernova speech, and then to the refectory for lunch. They did spaghetti Carbonara, my favourite, but it wasn't really good. It was really dry for some reason. Filled me up though. Then had another tea in the cafe before going up to my hair appointment. That was a full success. They really pamper you, they are really friendly and they do it professionally and not like the cheep hairdressing salons. It still cost me only 10 pounds because it is a student run salon.
Now everyone says how lovely my hair looks, ,so yay!
Then had two more cups of tea here which our mate made me who is staying with us till tomorrow, and then we'll go and listen to someone's testimony later.
You may not believe in this but there is a bloke called Ian McCormack. He was diving about 20 years ago, got bitten by five box-jeyyfish (which is highly poisonous) and went to the hospital. He died and god took him to hell and then to heaven where he met the LORD face to face. The LORD then braught him back from the deadh. He is still crying because of god's love after more than 20 years. He's from New Zealand. I have seen him once before, he's amazing. He was praying for us and we felt god's power went through me. It was amazing.
Sorry, if I knew how to do LJ cuts I would have done that right now.

Tomorrow it's college again. I love it. At the moment I just love my life. I am so happy, independent, and confident. I'm really content.

Hi all,

After seeing all those surveys people made up I decided to make a non-teen-survey without too many being-in-love questions because it’s not all about that. So, enjoy, and, if you want, answer the questions for yourselves. I’d also love your comments about my answers.

Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It@d be nice if you’d answer honestly.

1. How old are you? 22
2. How old do you think you are mentally? 22
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Diet coke
4. Summer or winter? Summer!
5. Do you have a life motto? “live to love and laugh”.
6. Happiest year in your life? This year, definitely.
7. Happiest day this year? Far too many to count.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Depends.
10. School or work? I don’t know, haven’t experienced work yet.
11. Rice or pasta? Pasta but like rice too
12. Are you happy where you live? Absolutely!
13. What do you wish the most right now? More friends in the area
14. Your dream holiday? Somewhere on a beach with all my friends, with a barbecue and cocktails.
15. Your goal in life? To fulfil the destiny that god has for me.
16. Bodyshop or lush? Bodyshop for shampoo and skin stuff and make-up, Lush for soaps, shower and bath stuff
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? If I had more female friends, I’d soooo love to!!
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can’t see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? More and more!!
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? Comfortable mostly but I’d love to have a few more fashionable items.
20. What do you think are your strengths? Infectuous laugh, nice smile, great humour, open-minded, good in learning languages, good listener, very emotional but not too much so, great singing voice
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? I think we all do but I am getting better.
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile shyly, laugh a bit and say thank you.
23. Are you good at giving compliments? I’d say I am.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? Oh yes, very strongly.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? Kansas because of the international house of prayer, anywhere where it’s sunny and where there are beaches.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Most of the time, but I do want to be more honest. I often lie about small things, but I’d say I’m honest in friendships.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? No. I was close to, once, when I was with my ex, but didn’t. I’d think about how I’d feel if he’d do it to me.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Milk all the way!!!!!
30. Tea or coffee? Tea definitely.
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Sometimes, but then I think no, too much happened to me as a child.
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Intelligent, childlike, outgoing
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? Way more now than I used to, now that I like myself more.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh goodness yes, all for the better.
35. If someone hadn’t seen you for a while and they’d see you again now, what do you think they’d say about you? “She gained some more weight, but she also gained confidence and takes more care of her body.”
36. Like getting drunk? No yuck. Tipsy, oh yes. But not drunk. Only did it once.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? Yes, snap at other people, yell, make sarcastic remarks
38. favourite ssmell? Vanilla, coconut, mango
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Enrique Iglesias. Lol
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Yes lol, and they saw all the Enrique love promises. Rofl
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All my friends together in harmony having a great time.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? That’s hard to answer for me, I guess my nan, in a way.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Yup one girl from kindergarten lol
44. Swimming or running? Swimming
45. Most relaxing sound? The sea
46. Can you play an instrument? No but I can sing. I want to learn the piano though.
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? Inventor of sweets and cakes that make you thin
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? Friends, god gave them to me.
49. Sweet or savery food? SweetYes I can.
50. Do you like gossiping? I try not to. I hate talking behind people’s back, happened to me too often in the last years.
So there you go. Enjoy!!

Okay all, since this has been on two of my friends’ journals, I decided to waste some time on this myself. Lol. Enjoy, might help you get to know me even more.

130 questions? Promise you won’t lie?
Yeah yeah get on with it. Lol
Do you get jealous easily?
No not really, am pretty easy-going in that respect.
What are you currently waiting for?
For this weird stomach sickness to finally leave me alone
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
Present I think, the past is passed so I try not to dwell on it.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yes my friend saskia from Germany, also honestly want to see Kay again and spend time with her.
Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you too?
I should think so, it’s my fiance, I’d be worried if I didn’t.
Is anything wrong with your eyes?
Oh, not at all, I am just using a screen reader for fun!!! Lol no actually it’s the optic nerve.
Do you have nice eyes?
Yes, green and sparkling, my fiance’s favourites, at least of my outer features.
Have you ever received a love letter more than a page long?
Ewwww don’t get me started. Yes I have. He was 18, I was 13, he had a mental disorder and many psychological issues and was scary.
Who's thinking about you right now?
I’ll let you know as soon as I can read thoughts.
Maybe my friend Saskia, and my fiance, my nan nad my mum.
Is this year the best year of your life?
Absolutely, I’m so happy because I live here now and got all these new beginnings.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Kay I’d say, at least she’s living in the same country. I have yet to find more friends here.
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
I like it, at least I can drink diet drinks without putting lots of weight on.
Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
No
Does your bedroom need cleaning?
No, my fiance loves cleaning so that won’t be a danger. Lol
Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
Really slow, so you can get to know each other better, but when you’re in love you don’t think rationally.
Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
Afraid that’s unavoidable as I live with my man. Apart from that: Yeah I do. Sometimes when we go to the pub, me, Gav and two friends, I’m the only girl there.
Are you comfortable with your height?
No I am too small for my weight. Haha no truthfully I’d love to be at least four or five inches taller.
Do you act differently around the person you like?
Used to when I first met him, am always shy at the beginning.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I should hope so. Lol
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes, three actually. And there would be more if I took the time for them.
Do you like thunderstorms?
Hate them when I’m outside, but inside, with a nice hot chocolate and being cosy, I love them.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes, but it never lasts long.
How fast does your mood change?
Wanna come and find out?
A little too fast, trying to work on it.
Are there things that can't be joked about with you?
Absolutely, since I have strong Christian values. But I’d let you know.
What do you always take with you?
Wallet, phone, signature guide, tablets
When is your birthday?
16. January. I’ll be 23 soon!!
Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I fell asleep on a sofa in the college corridor a few weeks ago. Everyone ran to the office opposite me to ask if I was all right. Haha
Anything on your walls?
Not yet.
What do you bite more, your tongue, lip, or cheek?
Youchy I think that would be the tongue.
Has a boy/girl called you babe/baby lately?
None apart from my fiance, but I had to get used to old men calling me love here. Nobody would do that in germany.
Is there something that you want to tell someone but can't?
Yes unfortunately.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
Yes absolutely, the one I’m in now is almost two years and intended for forever.
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Yes people who didn’t invent daft surveys.
And, the same man I’m with now.
Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
No but if you wanna try, good luck. I pray for your life, lol. I for one am not suicidal.
Does anyone know your passwords besides you?
My fiance does.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Volvic water taja fruit, strawberry. Love it!!
I bet you miss somebody right now...
Yes, my friend Saskia from Germany.
Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
No, you can call it a miracle if ever I’ll be that organized.
Can you count past 100?
Did you invent this survey for little kids? I can count past 100 in English, German, French and Spanish, beat that!! Lol
Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
Yes they dictated my life long enough and don’t like anyone I like anyways. Oh dear I hope they will never read this.
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Not tone hour, I’d get panicky.
Is there someone you can tell anything to?
God, my fiance, Saskia, other friends
At this moment in time if you HAD to have someone's name tattooed on you, whose would it be?
Jesus!!
Friends don’t get annoyed by that, had to answer truthfully after all.
Most memorable thing that's happened to you over the summer?
Saskia came down for two weeks from germany!!
Has anyone called you perfect before?
No, and that should stay that way because nobody is perfect.
Do your best friends' parents tend to like you?
Oh yes. But do my parents tend to like my best friends? Hell no!!
Are any of your friends taller than you?
Let me rephrase that: Are any of my friends smaller than me? Oh, yes, two of them. The rest is way taller. *sad face* no wonder my fiance calls mme little one.
Name the bands you have band tees for:
Got none
Do you prefer the ocean or pool?
Pool for a real exercise swim, but definitely ocean for the noise, the lovely smelling air and just bathing in it, having fun without swimming because that’d make me drift and lose my way.
Ever liked someone whose name started with a B?
No
Does the last person you shared a bed with, mean anything to you?
Yep he’s my fiance so definitely.
What's your favorite part of the song that you're listening to?
Not listening to any right now
Ever really cried your heart out?
Oh yes, I’m a bit of a softy so do it loads.
Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
Heck no, and thank goodness for that. I changed, I’d say, for the better, love myself more and take care of myself more, have more self-confidence.
Do you get good grades?
Yes. Why do you ask? Need help?
Is there a difference between love and IN love?
Yes. To be in love is a condition, a state you’re in, feelings, emotion. Love is a long time decision. Love goes beyond how you feel at the moment, if the person annoys you sometimes … you still decide to love them for who they are, and it’s not depending on your emotions.
Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
Oh yes, with my uncle. I loved it!!
Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't?
When they’re close to me, it really does.
Was 2008 a good year for you?
Not really but it taught me a few valuable lessons.
Do you think you were raised well?
My parents taught me good manners, but didn’t raise me with enough love.
What's your favorite super-hero?
Jesus!
Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Again, in four languages. And again, this question makes me wonder who you have created this survey for.
What's worse: liars or cheaters?
Both equally bad.
Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I don’t think so, though there was an internet relationship with a weird bloke and he claimed I did when I finished it.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
It would, I hate the smell with a passion. Good thing my fiance doesn’t smoke.
Give me a random lyric from the song you're listening to.
I don’t listen to any at the moment.
Do you like competition?
Not really.
Do you think two people can last forever?
If they are totally committed, and, even better, have the LORD in their lives … absolutely.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
No, but very blessed.
Do you live in a ghetto neighborhood?
No.
Is there someone that cares about you more than themselves?
Jesus.
As far as people are concerned … don’t think so.
Who was the ugliest person you saw today?
I utterly hate and despise the word ugly. Nobody is ugly!
Freedom or safety?
Savety, I’m not much of a risk taker.
Has a song ever made you cry?
Tuns of them.
Has a book ever made you cry?
Again,, tuns of them. Most of the boks I read make me cry either because of sadness or happy ending tears cause I feel touched lol
Is the world crumbling to pieces?
Even though it seems like it, I still believe god is in control.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
Yes I stay in the one I am in now, thanks very much.
Your phone rings, what do you say?
I could have a laugh and answer in German, but most of the time it’s just “hello?”
Has anyone ever said they wanted to marry you?
Yep and he still does. *huge smiles*
Is your birthday on a holiday?
No but I make it into one for myself.
Do you always answer your phone?
Most of the time I’m too slow and can’t find it at the right time, so I have to wait till the person calls agai or I have to call back.
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Duh, kid!! I’m not even gonna answer that one because it goes without saying!
Who was the last person you had a sleepover with?
Probably saskia, ages ago.
Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
Yes two friends in primary school.
So there you have it. See you all soon.

Hi all,

I have bee nreading friends' livejournals since I have neither updated nor read any for six momths. Again, I'm sorry for that.
It also made me think that I was not really there foor my friends lately, especially those who read this journal. I'm really really sorry guys. Obviously I know I've been busy with studies and things but it is absolutely no excuse for not sending an email or a virtual hug via MSN/twitter/facebook/whatever. Again I'm very sorry. I'll try to make up for it.
Gav's gone out so here I am relaxing and writing this, still in my jammies, thank goodness I have a day off from college today. My friends list seems very very quiet, too quiet, to be very honest, where are all those lovely entries?
all my lovely UK-friends, whhat are te ways that I can top up my phone apart from registering my credit card? If I try and register my card it asks me for a pin ... what pin is meant by that?
We'll have a friend here for the weekend, so that will be good. He will hopefully, if he can manage, bring the little musical keyboard he helped me buy on ebay, and I can finally start practising the piano and singing. I love it!!
Not sure what I'll do next, probably just relaaxing.

See you all later. And, I love you all, and even though I didn't show it in the last few months, I do still care.

PS: Yikes!!! Didn't validate my email address so almost lost this entry and for definite lost the 130-questions-survey that I did yesterday!!! Darn darn darn!!! I'll have to redo the survey. That royally sucks!!! Oh well thought you al lshould know. Lol

Hi all,

this morning I got up, and then at 11 our support worker came. We finished filling out my application form for college, then filled out my claim for carer's allowance and Gav's carer's allowance for me so we can get some extra cash. The lady in the law-center has instructed us to do it that way. Afterwards, Miranda, Gav's stepmother, came and picked us up. Gav baught a new battery for his watch and I asked what I could do about my watch which gives me a nasty itching mark because of the chrome. The lady said that usually clear nail polish would do the job, so I will ask Miranda if she can do it tomorrow. Then we went to tesco and baught a few things, and then went to hers and talked to the girls which was quite nice. Gav looked at Miranda's nephew's laptop and then suddenly and spontaneously decided to sell his old desktop to Miranda and buy a laptop, which we will do tomorrow. Had nice tea, lasagna and chips, and Miranda took us home and helped us put our shopping in. She'll come tomorrow at ten, write all the stuff down about Gav's computer, while I go swimming. When I finish, we'll meet in town and look at some laptops for Gav, and some netbooks for me, so I can decide what I want. I can't afford it yet, obviously, because the DLA still hasn't come through yet, but I can at least look what they have and think what would best suit my needs. So yeah, all in all a very nice day. Also wore my new flip flops for the first time and felt quite comfy with them. Seriously though, I've already forgiven and forgotten that weekend when gav was away and Miranda didn't come. She has a heart of gold and I can't be angry with her. She is doing absolutely loads for us and she is an absolutely loving person. I love seeing her because she's just so helpful. Now I feel sorry about eating the rochers, that I baught for her, all myself. I will buy a new pack for her though, because she absolutely deserves it.
So I'll probably update you all tomorrow on how the netbook- and laptop hunt went lol.

Hi all,

it's true!! We've just put all my stuff in the drawer, put a few things away for charity that I didn't need, and now Gav's tearing boxes up that we don't need anymore. Now we'll bring the rubbish down and hopefully it'll be done by then after over four hours of hard work between us. On top of that, the tumble-dryer is in our room, which makes the room absolutely terribly hot. we're both sweating more than after a workout!! We'll be glad when it's over. I hope gAv'll be still up for doing us spaghetti after ... something we surely earned today. Loads of carbs after two workouts, kind of. Lol!!!

Hello all,

I know it has been a few days, maybe a week or two. I was just very very lazy, which is nothing new in the world of Ines Mayer. Lol. I don't know when I last updated and I don't want to look right now, the lazy one is coming through again. I'll probably just try and zoom in on some highlights and I'll start with a week ago on Monday.

We just hung around at home, and then suddenly a postman rang us, asking me where I live because they have a delivery for me from China. I don't know anyone from China, so I was very confused. I got the little package and it was a thing that I could not even identify, from a company called "Serui industry company" or something like that. It looked, according to our support worker and my mobility instructor, like a hairband. I still don't know who this was from and it kind of confused me because I don't think it was a missdelivery either because both my name and my street were listed on the address! So I was very very confused. Had mobility and then Kim came, and in the evening I was invited to a candle party and I was expected to be picked up shortly before 8 PM. NObody turned up. I sat there, with my shoes on, looking pretty and all ready to go, but nobody came. Gav then had pity on me and he took me out and treated me to a TGI Friday's, and it was a really nice evening, bless him!! Yes, I was still a bit disappointed, but of course it was still great to spend the evening with my fiance, having a nice meal. So it was worth it in the end.

We didn't do anything on Tuesday, and Wednesday the lady from guide dogs UK came. Turned out that Gav knew her from RNC, so they could catch up and then they talked to me about having a guide dog. The biggest worry was that they didn't see where the dog would go to toilet and that I had to talk to my la ndlord before I even considered applying ofr a guide dog. Then they talked me through the process and how the dogs were raised and so on, which was very interesting. Then they filledo ut some paper work and then they left, giving me quite a few things to think about. I will still apply for a guide dog if my landlord accepts it. Jamie, our friend, came on Wednesday evening and we4 had a great prayer time with quite some power.

Thursday we went to the gym again which was nice. Before that, Gav's uncle came up which was nice too. They said they'd meet us in town after us going to the gym. They said we didn't need a coat because it was so nice and warm, which is was, but when we came out of the gym, it was raining for a while. I went to K. F. C. and had some popcorn chicken which was absolutely lush. Then Gav's uncle and his fiance (and their two dogs) walked us home and then left. I went to a christian event at church in the evening which was absolutely powerful. People were healed, up to the point where they even got out of their wheelchairs. So it was definitely great.

Friday we didn't do much, apart from me starting to read another book and going to the ENT clinic, discovering that I wasn't supposed to be there for my appointment but somewhere else and we didn't know where, so that was quite confusing.

Saturday we baught myself a mask for the mask ball, and sat in town on a bench for a while. Then I had a McFlurry in McDonalds, and a diet coke, while Gav had a burger. In the evening i was at the ball and it was absolutely great. well, the music was a bit too loud in the end so I couldn't really talk to people, but there was one girl who was reall yreally nice. She prayed for me, added me to facebook and said we should go out for a coffee once. So that was a highlight.

Sunday, that is, yesterday, we walked to Gav's nan's because it was such a nice day outside. She had invited us for dinner. We had a lovely piece of pork, with roasters, mash and vegetables, and a lush chocolate gateau. Gav's uncle and his fiance and their dogs were there as well. AFter dinner, the smaller dog suddenly ran to me, jumping up on me and licking me all over, and then just resting on me while I stroked her. It was sooooo cute and I kind of missed her when they went away. This showed me again how I love dogs. No doubt I'l lsee her again, since of course they are family now. The rest of the time we just talked with Gav's nan and thaqt was lovely. Then we went to church and it was very powerful. A missionary from Afghanistan was preaching, and it was really really good. Then I got prayer and god's presence touched me and absolutely blasted me. We then went home to ours since we couldn't visit the older couple to pray, and prayed here and it was powerful again.

And today so far? This morning we were late to go to the gym. Gav forgot to put the alarm on and so I overslept ,thus having no time for breakfast. I absolutely need breakfast, especially if I'm expected to function and to work out. Went to the garage to get some nutragrain bars, but they didn't have any. So we had to go to tesco in town and get some and we were 15 minutes late. Even though we were late, I still had to ask Fleur, our trainer, if I could eat something before we'd start. Once I did though, I felt revived and strong and we could start our workout. Fleur encouraged me, saing I can do so much more than I think I can, and that I am working on a higher intencity than gav does, and that she'd love to have a session with me on our own because she could work so much with me on the ball, for my abs, on the steps and so on. She said I am stronger than I think I am. She was soooo encouraging that I went home really really happy ... and really really soaked because it was raining. Nevermind!! Then, just now. our friend Jamie at last braught the drawers he still had, so we will put all my stuff in there and I will no longer have to live out of suitcases and boxes, thank goodness. So yeah, we will just get this done now and then have spaghetti tonight and relax. Tomorrow we will go to Gav's stepmother's and half sisters' so I'm not sure if or when I'll update. Wednesday, I decided with Fleur, I'd come swimming in the gym. On my own though because Gav doesn't want to. Will go to the library after to get some more books, and then there'll be homegroup after. So all in all I think it will be a busy and nice week.

Hi all,

well I am quite touchy and sensitive today and I don't even know why. Gav's making his weird jokes and I just don't like it today for some odd reason. Oh well. Anyways, woke up and walked to the gym. I was tired and I almost didn't go but in the end I did after all and it was pretty good. Only when I changed after the workout and went to my locker the locker wouldn't open. Me and another lady tried again and again and it didn't butch and I already thought I'd have to leave all my stuff behind. My cane, my backpack ... Aaaaaah!! So in the end the card had mercy on me and decided to open the locker for me, and inside there were my cane, backpack and cardigan, already moaning where I was. Hahaha. No they didn't but if they had voices they probably would have. random I know. Anyways, after the gym we went to the library. I signed up for the RNIB talking book service but this still takes a while. Oh well. There's a waiting list. Bleh!! In the meantime I chose two books on CD and tape and ordered two others. I will start reading them later so I don't think you will see me online quite as often anymore which is good because reading is better and gives me a bit of a variety. I won't leave you totally though, so don't worry. Apart from maybe for one two days if the book is too exciting to put down hahaha. Went to tesco after and got some stuff, then went home, had lunch and now I'm hanging around on here while gav has a knap, then I go into the bedroom and start reading or rather, listening. Well so much for now. Later I'll probably either go to a church event or stay home because a friend is coming ... we'll see.

Hi all,

this is the next piece of my day. Shortly after I updated, I went to the open evening in college. Kim, our support worker, picked me up and we drove to the college campous. We went to student service we met Gav's auntie which was quite funny. Basically she suddenly asked if she could ask me a personal question and I said "um okay" and she asked "are you Gavin's girlfriend?" So that made us laugh. She's working there, see. Anyways, we went to the disability learning service then and they took my details and what I need. They use supernova!! Yikes!!! Oh well it is worth it. So that was quite successful. Then we went to the English class and she told us the difference between English literature and English language and literature and I chose that one because only literature sounded boring. So I was quite pleased for that. I told them that I did German equivalent o fGCSE and all they wanted to know is what grade did I have there and I said it was an A, so they said it would be no problem. So yay!! Went to the language department after where I wanted to do AS Spanish and AS French. Unfortunately I realized I didn't do Spanish GCSE and that would be a problem, and also the two classes were at the same time. And I thought maybe it would be better to do GCSE Spanish and build it up, and both Kim and the language lady agreed. So yay!! So I will be doing the following:
AS English
hopefully AS IT, but maybe GCSE
AS French
GCSE Spanish.

Got to go now though, food and then hojmegroup.

Hi all,

had a great day so far. Got up, showered very long as usual, did my porridge, a bigger portion this time because I was very hungry, and then went to the waitrose garage where someone would pick me up to go to Gloucester. She did come rather on time so we went to the park & ride parking area and took the bus. She was quite chaotic and didn't know where she was going but we gfound everything in the end which was good. We were nice and early. I went to a few stands, the one of RNIB first. I heard that if you send a book in, they can transcribe it for you in braille or daisy, and I heard that you can get this daisy reader for free!!!!! Now for you English guys this sounds probably very normal. For me it's not because Germany is very very far behind in these things. So I will now send a few christian books and maybe even books I need for college in there and they will transcribe it, so yay!! Then I went to humanware, where they showed me the daisy reader and the portable daisy and MP3-player which is amazing, and a table top scanner (I think that's what it's called). It's basically a scanner that you can use independently from a computer. It would cost loads of money and my hopes of getting it shrank, until I sat on the lunch table with a very nice family. They said that if I go to college I could apply for student allowance which means they would also assess me and if they find I would need that scanner they would give it to me and since it is not on a loan, I could keep it. So I got hope!! They were very nice. They also told me about sight village and I wil ldefinitely go there.
Now tomorrow we will go to the gym and I will see if I can find the library and get a daisy book there, so yays.
Now it is not even an hour until I will go to the college open evening and that will be good. I hope that everything will be going fine there and that we can get a few things sorted. If it is not too late after we will go to homegroup. We most definitely will, actually.
Right, this is my day so far and I'm absolutely glad I went to that exhibition. So yay for that!!! Also found a lady's watch. I didn't want to have a talking watch but that one was at least without chrome, and I think I am allergic to chrome. So might buy that in a few weeks when I Have a bit more money behind me.
So all in all I am very very pleased with the day so far.

Hi all,

yes I know, since I have this client I am updating amazingly often, hahahaha.
Yesterday after I updated, I called gav to see where he was, because I had to go to the shop and get some milk and shampoo and stuff like that. He said he would arrive soon and that his nan and her partner would pick him up. But he said he would wait for me on the steps in front of our house because the weather was nice. I had his keys so he would just have to do that. So I went and it went really well. Got back with a damn heavy bag with two four-pinters of what I thought was skimmed milk but turned out to be semi-skimmed. Yikes, but I love it! I mean yes, skimmed'd be better for me, but I love the taste of semi-skimmed milk more.
So yeah, Gav was back and we were both glad in a way that he was back. The rest of the evening he did his washing and I had another ready meal, lasagna again. Went to bed at 10:15 but Gav came in and accidentally woke me at 11, meh!! We ended up talking till after one!!! I was still rather awake this morning at 7 AM, so got up because I had to go to the toilet, and then decided to stay awake. Took my pill cocktail and hung around on here for a while, well, on MSN and facebook and Twitter, and then did myself some nice porridge. I kind of threw Val's measurement over board and experimented a little because her measurement was not enough for hungry Ines' grhrhrhrhrhrhrhrowling and complaining tummy, so I made my own portion. Basically I put quite a bit of porridge in, poured quite a bit of milk over it b ut not too much, and then stirred. Then put it in the microwave for a minute and took it out. That's the way you can keep it from overboiling. I stirred it and it was quite a solid firm mash so I poured more milk in and put it for 30 seconds, took it out again, checked the consistence and did that twice more so that it wouldn't boil over. Yes, takes a bit longer, but the microwave stays clean and I stay calm. It was really nice. Still not enough so will try again tomorrow with even a bit more porridge. So now Gav's just coming in, so that's where the story ends. Lol. Take care all!!

Looks like I will have to add one more pill in my morningly pill cocktail. Yay!! Fun!! *rolls eyes* the doctor just called me and said my prolactin level is very high and he has to refer me to a specialist. Blah!! Oh well. Never mind. I'll be okay, atl east it shouldn't be alarming.
Did another ready meal earlier and did it really well. For you guys this might sound profound but I@m still proud of myself for doing it.
That's pretty much all. Oh, no. Gav's uncle and his fiance were coming earlier and wanted to have a cup of coffee. Then they realized I had no more milk left. Oh well. My mobility instructor fell and hurt her head, poor her. I will now get dressed (Yes, I know, lazy me, being in my PJ's all day) and then wil lgo down to the shop for some cow-juice and hairjuice ... I meant shampoo and conditioner and some other stuff.

Yep that sumarizes it quite well. I have just been talking to chiming_magic again and somehow my mind decided to produce some odd thought connections. I think it started when Kay said I am still set to away, and I said that I always do this. I then changed my status and said "you got to be a genious, being away and still talking". And then I said jokingly "like 'oh, I am said to away but I can still talk to you, my brain is connected to MSN'". Yep I know, weird me. That made us both laugh. Then I realized that our brain works kind of like a computer anyways or rather, the computer works like our brain and that brain created computer. When Kay then said she just updated her LJ I said "Okay hang on, my brain ...um I mean computer is just connecting to the LJ site". Of course I said that intentionally. Hee.
Concerning the decision that I talked about in my subject: I decided to start commenting on my friends' LJs more. I have been lazy so far and this shall not continue any longer. Sorry if I never commented, guys, I just thought talking about it via MSN is more comfy but I will from now on.
With this I shall note that this is the third entry of today which is a miracle itself but it probably is because Gav's not there and I am in a weird mood and just need to get a life.
Speaking of which, on Wednesday I will have an open evening in college and I am nervous/excited about that. I will update when it is over. But I probably will update before that if both brain and computer, and my fingers, btw, feel like it. Oh yeah and you can't forget my emotions and such hahahaha. And with this load of rubbish a la Ines, I disappear off LJ with computer brain and all of me.

Hi all, just a brief entry about the blind singer I told you about .Joana Zimmer, that's her name. If you go to last.fm, you can actually listen to her albums. And there is even some report about her in english. She has an american father and a German mother, so she is not fully German. I hope you'll enjoy.

Hi all,

well yesterday was quite uneventful, crashed at 9. I slept through till 7:30, well almost. Got up and had an amazingly long shower. Went online and just waited for Kay to arrive. I was slightly nervous and, as if it wanted to annoy me, a migrain came and said hello. I told it to go away but it didn't, so I decided to wait till Kay would come and kill the migrain with a few strong pain killers later. Kay then called me, saying that she was in the taxi. Man, was I nervous!! I put my shoes on, took the keys and, just in case, my mobile, and walked out, or rather, rushed out as if she was already there. Came out and discovered that she wasn't, so I waited a few minutes. Then came the taxi and stopped immediately in front of me and he helped her out of the car. We said hi and were a bit nervous for the first few minutes. I led her into our flat. I felt very self-conscious, to be honest. Thought went through my mind like "What if the flat is stuffy and hot for her? What if I@m not a good host?" And all those stupid questions that you ask yourself when you are a girl called Ines with low self-esteem. Lol. Anyways, we gave each other a hug and kinda couldn't believe it that we finally had a real hug. We giggled a bit nervously about that, then we just started talking. After a while I offered her a cup of tea and so went in the kitchen. We started talking about Worcester college, about students and teachers and wardens and the particularly funny closet story with me and Matt when I was in Worcester. Kay hadn't heard the story yet so I told her and we laughed about that a bit. Gav called and talked to us both on loudspeaker, then he hung up and we kept talking about Worcester college and then moved to the topic of odd teacher experiences. We then set off towards town. Now I don't want anything that I am going to say to sound discriminating or boastful. We walked that very long pathway, and yes, I am a very fast walker because I know that way. I usually do a really fast walk, close to a jog. To be honest, it took some time for me to adapt to walk slowly, but that was okay, I quite enjoyed it. The way felt sooo much longer though. Lol. That was one of the moments where I was absolutely glad that I Had the little sight that I have. I could see enough in the front to tell Kay when there was a pole or a bumpy pavement or cobblestones or trees and roadwork, and I could look behind me to see if she was still near or if I was too fast. It was an adventure, but a fairly nice one. We then arrived in the high street. Now I thought that subway was fairly close. But it wasn't. We asked a few people and they said that it was on the total other side of the road. Yikes! We stood there a while and discussed. Then made our way back towards Argos and subway. We asked someone else but she confirmed that it was a long way off so we decided to go to starbucks instead. I had an egg sandwich and a caramel shortbread. We talked about Gav and I showed her my engagement ring and she was very happy for us. Then I told her about Gav and me in germany, a few dangerous and a few funny episodes, and then we decided to get a taxi back. We had some fun and difficulty finding the taxi rank, but we found it and we had a very nice driver. Came back here and I made her another cup of tea. gav called again and we talked to him again, then I ended up showing her some music from a german blind singer who sings in English and she loved her voice. I'll see if I can get my mum to send me my CDs of her which I forgot in germany, so I can copy them for her.
Then she had to go and I have to say, time passed way way way too fast. I miss her and I really want to come and see her as soon as we can arrange it.
Now I am on my own again but I'm okay as I have MSN conversations going. I hope Miranda's going to come today though, I need her to help me to get the post and hopefully find the teabags in the cupboard as I can't find them.
Kay, today meant more to me than you probably know. I'm not saying that lightly, I really enjoyed meeting you and you are as fun to talk to in person as you are on the internet. I'll definitely see you soon. Oh, and eak and huge hugs.

Hi all,

after I updated yesterday, nothing really happened apart from us having a very nice tea, spaghetti Bolognese, and our friend coming for prayer, even though he had been on the road for ten hours before that. Anyways, today so far was really really good and really really successful. I did my own porridge without the stuff overboiling, so a big yay hurray for that ,and washed up really well after, so I am really pleased. Then we went to the gym and had a really great workout, went to the post to post another postal order for the ladies' flip flops I have purchased on ebay, and then I went home and had lunch. So yay, really nice day!! I just checked out the bank note detectors, but decided to not buy it yet after all ... I will be broke all the sooner and I do need the money at the weekend, after all.

So yeah, I'm very content!!

Hi all,

now I usually like busy days. I really do. But today it really exhausted me. Woke up this morning, showered, quickly had breakfast and then went to the doctor's. All went well luckily and I finally got the tablets for weight loss that I have asked to get time and time again over the last two months, so yay for that. Got home and just a half an hour later, Gav suggested to go Grosery shopping now because he didn't want to go later. So yeah we did that. Walking around in the shop, choosing things, then went back on a taxi. Couldn't even eat before mobility, just had a little bit of time on the internet, and then Val came, my mobility instructor. I took some really strong tablets against my migrain and then took the task of mobility. Since I will be on my own this weekend and Gav is visiting an old school friend, I asked if I could learn how to do porridge, rather than going out to Tesco. So we did that and totally overboiled the porridge, bleh!!! That kinda made me scared of being on my own this weekend but we tried different measurements and it worked. Val's a star!! She braught me a braille microwave book which is old but still helpful, and she lent me three measuring cups because we didn't have any yet, and a sugar dispenser. After doing all the porridge stuff, val helped me to put my microwave meals in order so that I can eat them while Gav's away. She cut off some corners of boxes or folded corners or just tried to make them look differently and I recorded on my little recorder, how many minutes they take in the microwave. Afterwards she took me to the pharmacy so I could get my tablets. She did so much for me today!!! She's really amazing and I really learn a lot from her ... especially positive thinking and calmness when something doesn't go the way I want it to.

So now I finally have some time to relax and be on here. Nothing else to do today. Gav's doing us spaghetti Bolognese for tea, and he's absolutely good at that so this is something I definitely look forward too, yummy!!! Will just relax for the day. Maybe we can go to the gym tomorrow but if not, I'l lgo to the post and get a postal order ready for the company I buy my ladies' flip flops from so I can get that. I finally got to post the postal order for my nice designer handbag I got from Ebay, so this bag probably has been sent off today, meaning I can get it either tomorrow, Friday or Saturday, yayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!! I'm really excited. Not that I Really really got to have designer stuff but once in a while, and especially if it's such a bargain ... who can resist? Lol. So yay, I am very happy, but exhausted.

Hey again peoples,

well, our support worker came earlier and I made her a cup of tea and she liked it, so yay for being even as good that I can even make one for others. Yayayayayay. Also we booked Gav's train ticket to Stoke, meaning he wil ldefinitely go this weekend. I am glad for him that he is going, and I am excited and a bit nervous of staying behind. I hope Miranda, the mother of Gav's half sisters, will have me for a night and we can catch up, but if not, I'll just have a party in the house. Ha ha, I don't even have anyone to invite, but hey. So yeah this will definitely be a great and interesting weekend so I will definitely update you about it. Also next week is the open evening for college, so yay for that, and the week after, the people from guide dogs UK are coming, or rather, one lady is coming, for a visit, so yay for that. Yay for many good news.
I am in a bit of a reflective mood. Like, a content reflectiveness. I am thinking how lately I am so content and grateful for small things and take fewer things for granted. Also I reflected on my parents and the boarding school I was at and I realized what a blessing they were. Yes, my parents made quite a few mistakes and I still suffer the consequences. But I want to remember the good things they have done. Mum and dad always pushed me to be the best, to be as independent as I could be. Sometimes they pushed me too hard, up to the point of manipulation, but I know they always had good intentions and they wanted me to be independent and lead a happy, independent life. That's why they sent me to boarding school from the time I was 13. Another thought is, that I am absolutely thankful for my first mobility instructor in Marburg, in the boarding school I used to go to. When I came there, I was a shy quiet little mouse, afraid to talk to any stranger and not even dare to go into our public school secretary area. She chalenged me every time to ask people about the way, and even ask for things like for a cigarette for my mobility instructor. Now I didn't like this at all and I still wouldn't like doing that, but she challenged me to really ask people for things, total strangers ... and guys, all the adventures that I am currently doing ... I would have never ever done it if she hadn't challenged me. I wish I could find her. I wish I could see if she has facebook. I will, actually. I wish I could send her a message, thanking her for what she has done, for what she has helped me to accomplish, for giving me a real big confidence boost from which I am still benefitting. Yes, it was almost ten years ago, and I wonder if she remembers me, but this would be an amazing encouragement for her when I do that. When I remember her, I always remember a quite tall, 40-year-old lady. She was blunt, straight forward and sometimes intimidating but also really lovely and funny and really encouraging ... and she pushed me forward. She didn't let me be lazy or slack. Other instructors always, yes, always, went drinking coffee with their students. But she made me work hard and gosh, am I ever thankful for that. I wouldn't be where I am now, even going into another country, accepting strangers' assistance, if it wasn't for her.

I hope I didn't bore you but I just thought about this all day today.

Hi all,

What a morning!! I loved it, because it was adventurous. Well, I loved it apart from the end. but let's not start from the end, eh? Lol

Anyways, yesterday evening we had prayer with our friend Jamie which was very good. Those who are christians, you can look into the christian communities, probably "LJchristians" and "seekinghisface", I may post it there so I don't have to bother non-christians with stuff that they might classify as Ines going out of her mind lol

Anyways, and today, this morning, the day started absolutely rubbish. First of all I showered, and I somehow never manage to pull the curtain correctly, meaning I created a lovely little lake on the side of bath tub. Didn't think I was good at landscaping, lol. Anyways. I had placed my clothes on the toilet lid, next to the little lake. My clothes obviously felt horribly hot and decided to go for a swim ... without asking my permision. So I had to pick them up and put them on the towel stand to let them dry. I then quietly walked into the room, hoping not to awake Gav, totally naked, to get some dry clothes. While I looked for my clothes, I banged my head on the dryer. Meh, that hurt!! I thought Gav would have heard that but thankfully he didn't. I then ran into the bathroom and finished what I had to finish. I couldn't find my favourite hair clip and had to wear some others. But thankfully there the misery ended. Lol
I took a taxi to the doctor's. Luckily we know a taxi company, and they have quite a few people on there that are actually English and not foreign, which means very friendly drivers. Some talkative, some not. The one who picked me up today already knew Gav and me, and I recognized him because whenever we get to his taxi, there's football going on ion the radio, so yeah. He showed me the entrance to the medical center and for the first time I found my way to the nurse reception without hardly asking anyone. Yay!!
I absolutely hate, hate blood tests. I used to have lovely veins, easy to find, and now they are so deep. Only after the second try we found a decent one. Meh. I don't really mind the prick. I hate it more when I have to tear the patch with the cotton wool from my arms. Ouch, that hurts more than the bloody needle!! Oh well, it was done. I got my prescription for theiroxin, simvastatin (for colesteral) and my iron tablets and then started the adventurous walk. I walked to town and only got lost once, and that wasn't too bad. Found my way eventually and went to the post first to get the postal order done for the designer handbag I found on ebay. Man, the queue was so terribly long, and my feet hurt and I was absolutely annoyed. Finally it was my turn and they did the postal order for me, so yay, handbag's on my way soon. Still have to find a way to send the money to the flip flop seller, and they only accept pay pal so I asked them if it wouldn't be possible for me to get a postal order as well, since paypal is a pain in the backside for me. Haven't heard a reply yet. Meh.
After going to the post I thought I would have to walk a long time to get to boots, but I was very very pleased when I heard that boots was just opposite the post office, so yay for that. I got some more volumizing shampoo and conditioner and handed my prescriptions in and got my tablets, then went to starbucks. My weight loss will soon wr ite a complaint letter to me but I couldn't help drinking a large caramel latte and eating a caramel shortbread and a huge chocolate cookie. I then decided to get a chocolate cookie for Gav and surprise him and I got a small caramel and cream frapuccino. Yummylicious but I made a mess on my freshly washed shirt, bleh!! I drank that outside, sitting on a ledge near a fountain, in the sun. Sounds great, eh? Then I decided to walk home, and that was the worst part. I suddenly forgot where to cross and which direction to walk and got totally lost. I couldn't explain to the people I asked where I'm going, apart from mentioning the basehill pub. So they showed me a way to the basehill pub, like they're supposed to ... but it wasn't the way that I am used to and I was totally confused. Someone helped me walk to waitrose because that's quite near our flat, and he chatted to me about where I am from and that my English sis superb considering I am from germany. I get to the point where I just laugh when I hear this. EVeryone says that to me. He even thought I had a Cheltenham accent and I was close to saying "no thank you" but I didn't dare. Lol. Those of you who know my fiance know his accent. When we were in gErmany together, a girl from New Zealand came over to me, asking in her funnz Kiwi accent: "Do youy wanna have his accent?" I wish I could imitate the accent on LJ but if you are on skype with me or something I will do it with my voice lol. Anyways the bloke and I just talked until we were near waitrose. He said he had to go and I thanked him ... and then thought "Hmmm, right ... now where am I?" I walked a little and then saw a young girl with a bloke walking behind her so I asked them and said I needed to go to the apartments near Waitrose. Luckily enough she braught me to the right ones and now I am sitting here, my feet are burning a little bit but hey, I'm home and that's all that matters. I love adventures, and when I get lost ... hey, what a great opportunity to talk to some funny, nice people!!